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Enchanted : Watching BlueWatching a flashing blue light from across the Rossendale valley makes me feel frail happiness. Odd, that all the horror, tragedy and tears are summarised, by distance, into this joyous pinprick of flickering blue. Perhaps - in time - the victims will feel as I do now and this memory will recede deep into the mind where it will only flicker and rot.
But now I stand staring in the darkness watching cars pass (speeding along until they see the lights then slowing to a crawl) and I feel, oddly content; in a childish sort of way.
Then the wind picks Enchanted : Watching Blue
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boys dont hit girlsim watching leaves fall they do it slowly but one by one they all fall down
yesterday was so horrible, i think. how could i have been so evil, so nasty, to someone id said i loved? because i didnt love them. i knew that, but id never known i was capable of something so cruel. she said you cant do this and she didnt sound as angry as she had at first. all of a sudden she sounded weaker, broken, defeated. and i - defying all the good i thought was in me - heard that weakness, saw the look in her eyes. the desperation. watch me.
what did i expect? that when i turned my back, shed turn hers? boys dont hit girls
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at the party
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sometimes i forget to smilesometimes i forget to smile. its weird. i find myself staring into other peoples eyes, people i dont even know, trying to put a life to a face, to those eyes. when i do that they often see me and look back for a few moments. i want to smile, like i usually do - give a big beaming smile, like ive known them all of my life, just to see how they react, and let them know that im harmless, if a little strange - but sometimes i forget. its like i know what it is i want to do but i dont know how to do it. i get caught in their eyes and feel like i could just be swallowed up by them and disappear forever. i did it just the other day on the trai sometimes i forget to smile
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Thu Aug 17, 2006, 4:15 PM

as can be seen by the sparsity of my journal entries, i havent been on here in well over a year. i just popped back to deviant to find some stock images to muck about with for some self-promotion (i shall explain in a mo) and saw that some lovely people had posted some LOVELY comments about my writings/manips, which i have rudely ignored until this moment now. i shouldve persevered (i ought to know how to spell that, but...) with this page, and the advice from xsaltinmywoundx is very helpful... dammit i shouldve read things sooner.

anyhoo, im now doing more regular blogging type stuff on myspace and (shameless plug - myspace.com/bishely or bishely.googlepages.com) you can also hear some demos of songs ive written in the past 6months or so. my life has gone in all directions recently.
Tx

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Current Residence: Sunny Huddersfield, Mell Wonged Studio (BUT ALAS... WE'RE SELLING)
Interests: Music (all), Art (all, inc music), People
Favourite movie: Amelie and Ghost World and All About Lilly Chou Chou
Favourite band or musician: Do Make Say Think... Or Regina Spektor... Or Mogwai........ But my favourite album is Money Jungle..
Favourite genre of music: Sod genres.
Favourite artist: Francis Bacon... i think.
Favourite poet or writer: its an odd choice but... maybe Iain Banks... If not its Hunter S. Thompson
Favourite photographer: Kate Rothwell
Favourite style of art: Scratchy, blurry, evolving
MP3 player of choice: gotta be Winamp Classic ('modern'=mingin)
Shell of choice: Tortoise :)
Wallpaper of choice: a little pic of some clouds that i did
Favourite gaming platform: The good old Atarti STe
Favourite cartoon character: Rud by my good friend Riccardo Kennedias
Personal Quote: D'you want a brew?
Tools of the Trade: Me, Computer, Keyboard and Speakers, Crappy UCLogic Graphics Tablet, Pens and Paper, Scanner.

Website: http://startasimean.blogger.com
Email: thombishop@hotmail.com
AIM: startasimean
MSN: Thom the Bish
ICQ: 297458362

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~AllyOliver Nov 21, 2005, 3:06:21 PM

ps/ i love you too..and il be comin back. x

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-Ally-

~AllyOliver Nov 21, 2005, 3:03:07 PM

Hey, most ppl who use DA seem to be into their music, just wondered if u were?

Theres a gig on at Cornerhouse in Hudds nx Tues. A pretty cool band. Theyr abit different. NME and Radio1s Steve Lamacq are big fans.

S'only a fiver, and Im tryin to help the Hudds gig scene get going.

[link] to sample their tracks,
altho if u dont like, the support r a whole different kettle of fish.

[link] if you're interested in tkts.

Sorry to clutter yr front page. Spread the word, if you like the sound.

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-Ally-

~startasimean Feb 15, 2005, 5:42:17 AM

No one posts here.
Tis a dreadful shame.
Id love to know what people think of my stuff.
But i dont even get abuse.
Its just not fair.
Ok so I havent submitted much but.
Surely its not about that.
Quality and all.
Not quantity.
I wish someone would just read something.
Something I wrote.
Or my pictures.
I have more pictures but.
Im dead shy dont look at me dont talk to me.
That was not true.
I am an.
Sorry sorry dont meanto seem pretentious.
I guess I am a bit.
Not the point.
If youre reading this.
I love you.